Clearing the Air

Thanks to everyone who has left encouraging comments, sent sweet texts or sent a kind email. I have several emails that I need to respond to. You guys have offered amazing help and want to do such kind things for my family. Thank you. I honestly am so humbled I can't even find the right words with which to reply.

Please hang with me (if you want.). I love writing this blog and plan to continue to do so for a very long time. I appreciate you following along and it means so much to know that people are praying for us on a daily basis.

I'm tying up some loose ends on projects that I started and plan on taking a break from those things for a while. Family, church, school and the Foundation are all that seem to fit for us right now. Like I said, I will continue to blog because its my daily therapy session. I need this for my sanity. But some days the blog doesn't even fit into my day.

I have begun to feel that the words I wrote may seem like a constant complaint. As if all I ever do anymore is whine. I don't mean for that to be the case. What I want my blog to be is a journal of my (our) life. If I am not honest here then I will not have an accurate account of what life for us during this season was really like.

For example, when I say I haven't slept through the night in 3 years I'm not whining. I'm just helping myself understand and remember why I am so stinking tired all the time.

As much as I want to forget a lot of my life lately, I really do want to remember. It is reflecting back on the really hard days that helps me put the present in perspective. I hope that the future hard days fail in comparisons to the present. Without this journal I may not be able to appreciate what I really have at the moment.

Tonight the family bunkered down for a rather scary tornado warning. Driving home from choir practice..alone...with the weather sirens blaring was really not fun. All seems to be well now and we are finally heading to bed. Tomorrow jack has 3 doctors appointments. Please say a prayer for him as we try to come up with a game plan for getting his asthma under control. As many of your know, asthma is just so scary.

Lucy is working towards staying at school 2 full days a week. She had a pretty bad week last week but seems to have rallied pretty well. Ella...well she's just a lot like Mary Poppins. Practically perfect in every way.

I wanted to end tonight with a Bible verse that i've been thinking a lot about lately. I want to adopt a verse for our family and I think this might be it. Everyday before school I pray with the girls as we drive. These are the words I pray, although not in this exact verbiage.

Micah 6:8
...And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

If this is what The Lord requires of us, then I want my life to reflect this. I want my children to see me live this life. I learned this week that if over extending myself puts me in compromising positions in which I can't live the way God wants, then i just have to say "no." No amount of volunteering can erase one example of a bad witness. People always want to remember the bad. Not the good (intentions).

Whew! It's been a long week and it's only Wednesday. This post has been all over the board and I apologize. I just needed to clear the air.