I am happy to report that Lucy came through her surgery with flying colors. She was a little sore this morning (and again tonight) but she went to school today and did great. She will have to take it easy for the next 10 days while her incision heals, but she is going to be just fine. I just want to thank you all for continuing to pray for our girl. I know that many more stories of precious, sick children have come your way and it would be so easy to move on from our family. We know this and we appreciate the prayers that are lifted on her behalf every single day.
I had a rough day yesterday at St. Jude and then at home. The weight on anxiety was so heavy on my shoulders that I went to bed at 8:30pm with the worst neck ache I've ever had. I felt nauseated and had cold sweats. I think the longer I'm away from St. Jude the harder it is to go back each time.
We saw a family that had been at the Target house with us in the Fall of 2011. We found out that 7 months after he was home from his treatment of Ewings Sarcoma, he was diagnosed with AML. I couldn't even speak to his mother. I had nothing of any encouragement to give her. I felt so helpless, and could only imagine how she must have felt. Cancer is evil. EVIL.
I couldn't sleep last night thinking about them. It would be Lucy. It could be our family again. While I don't let my mind and heart go there often I would be lying if I said it wasn't something that was always on the back of my mind. Cancer and the effect of Lucy's treatment will haunt our family as long as we live. Ella couldn't even stay at school yesterday she was so worked up about Lucy's surgery. The worst part was that there was nothing I could say to Ella to make her feel better. (I was 0 for 2 yesterday in the "words of wisdom" category."
Lucy will be having some renal studies done during her next week of visits, which is rapidly approaching. Sept 3,4 & 5 will be our next "hurdle" to overcome. We are praying for clear scans but we are also praying for fully functioning kidneys and clear tests. We ask that you please join us. Until then, we will continue on with life as normal. Even though it seems impossible at times, with God's help we take it a day at a time.
Waking up, just like going to sleep sometimes for me, is always the hardest part. Lucy finds comfort in my arms and I continually find comfort in the arms of God.
"The eternal God is your refuge and underneath are His everlasting arms."