When Jack was 4 months old Lucy was diagnosed with cancer. Our lives turned upside down in the blink of an eye. I left this child that I had longed for for so long in the care of his grandparents. I left my baby. My heart ached every single moment I was away from him. I worried how we would ever bond. How would he ever trust me? Would he even know that I was his mom? As often as I prayed for Lucy's healing, I would pray that God would fill Jack with my smell, my voice, my touch. I prayed that God would protect our bond...the bond that we had established in my womb.
When I praise God for the miracles in Lucy's life, I am always reminded of the miracle of my and Jack's love. Oh how he loves me! Every moment we spend together my heart is filled with thanksgiving. All three of my children remain a constant reminder of God's amazing love, grace and mercy.
I love you Jon Keller. My precious baby boy, I love you.